Ten

Here is Ashlyn making her "Zoolander face." Ashlyn with daddy at Sophia's soccer game.

Ashlyn your tenth month has flown by so quickly. I feel like I just updated your ninth month blog...and here we are again. You rocked back and forth for a couple weeks and have finally gained enough steam to crawl through the house. I know where you have been because there is a small path of destruction...drawers left open, my dish towel on the floor, remotes broken into small pieces, and the Mr. Potatoe head is dismembered all over the living room...just to name a few recent disasters. You put everything in your mouth...and I mean everything, from dust bunnies, pennies, bugs, and shoes. (and those are just the things I know about.)

You have also have gained two new teeth for a total count of 6 and have started to eat big girl food! Your new favorite food is bologna. Toby and I agree there must be a gene for liking bologna. I think it is one of those foods you are disgusted by or love. We all love bologna!

Although I see you growing and maturing into a toddler...you are still so delicate and sweet. I hope the sweetness will not fade as you grow. Ashlyn, you have touched my heart and soul..I know people say love is blind...well, my heart has definitley been blinded by you. I know every inch of you, I know the way you smell and I can feel your little hand in mine, and know what it is like to kiss those chubby cheeks. I am soaking all these moments into my heart and as your one year birthday approaches I feel myself getting very emotional. Yes, it is a huge milestone for you, but at the same time, my beautiful baby is growing up. It gives me a glimspe into my own mortality and it is not my birthdays that makes me feel older, but my children's. Is that weird? I always wondered if everyone feels that way. I realize our journey together has essentially just started ,but your sister's seems to be sprinting by me. And I cannot not rewind or DVR any moments with you or her and I think that is what makes me so sad. My mom always holds my hand and looks at it...I always thought she was so weird for doing it... but, I never asked why? Then I realized I do the exact same thing with the both of you. When I put your hands in mine I can see your first year, I remember you moving in my belly, I remember your delivery and bringing you home and all the wonderful things until now...so I can only imagine what my mother feels when she holds mine. Well, goodnight my little love bug! Before we know it your1st b-day will be upon us... I'll save my tears for then.